.the holiday season.

the holidays are now in full swing.
snow is falling and im actually playing christmas songs.
thanksgiving is over. and thankfully black friday is too.
busting out my ugly christmas sweaters and christmas list.
the deer are out. i found that out last night.
when one kicked my dog and left him mentally scarred for life.
and he now has a bruise on his leg. he wont stop whining about it.
my dog is a bit of a baby though.
so you never really know how badly he is actually hurt.
this christmas is going to be very different. in a good way.
my sister doesnt live at home so she'll only be visiting.
my brother wants a puggle puppy. and hopefully he'll get it.
cause i want a new puppy.
i get to snowboard again this year. last year i missed it a lot.

i love the smell of christmas. and the feeling.
the feeling that everyone loves everyone.
even when half the time you know everyone wants to kill everyone.
because they are so stressed out. but christmas makes everyone happy.
thats one reason i love it.
MERRY CHRISTMAS. the most beloved saying.
in my book. when someone says that i get the...i need to pee my pants feeling...
if that makes sense.
all in all. i want christmas to come. but i dont want it to ever be over.

.DANCES.?

Taylor(:

.bestfriends.

.driving to get pictures.

.homecoming.

.baseball players.

so far.
this year i have attended two dances.
i got asked to homecoming.
by Taylor John Bullock.
and the next was the sadie hawkins dance.
homecoming was fun.
we carved pumpkins.
and to top it off i went with my best guy friend.
i wore a black dress.
red vans.
red lipstick.
and a red clutch.
and you can probably guess what he wore.
a red shirt.
black suspenders.
black vans.
and black pants.
ill admit it.
we looked pretty fresh(:
we were in two separate groups.
one for the day date.
one for dinner.
the dance was a lot of fun too.
they played good music.
and the dance circles were actually really funny.
after the dance we watched prom night.
let me inform you.
in case you didnt already know this.
that movie is dumb.
it was a really fun dance in all though.
i definitely had a good time(:


andd now for sadies.
hahaha.
where to start with this day.
this day was disastrous.
everything that could go wrong.
went wrong.
haha.
the day date was a no go.
then the pictures..
hahaha.
i have no comment.
what a hassle.
they turned out really good.
soren took them.
but getting there for him to take them...
that was hard.
but everything after pictures went smoothly.
my mom made us dinner.
exquisite.
moroccan food.
it was so gooooodddd.
ahh.
my favorite kinda food.
the theme to the dance was..
take me out to the ball game.
so we all dressed up as baseball players.
lucky two of the boys played baseball.
so they had uniforms.
the dance was also fun again.
the music wasnt as good as homecoming.
buutt.
it was still fun.
we went crazy.
my group consisted of..
me and TJ.
(Taylor John Bullock).
kate and shawn.
and.
kari and hayden.
it was a good fun small group.
after the dance we all went back to my house.
we watched avatar.
we were all asleep within the first thirty minutes.
so far.
these are the only dances i have been too so far this year.
preference is this weekend.
but im not going.
i dont have the money to pay for two dances in a row.
anyway.
i cant wait for the next dances.
hopefully they will be just as fun(:

BOYS.

You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)
You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)

Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you, oh I hate it
Cause if ya really wanna be alone
I will throw my hands up cause baby I tried
Everything with you is so complicated
Oh, why?

Sometimes I get you
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes it's you I can't stand
Sometimes I wanna hug you
Sometimes I wanna push you away
Most times I wanna kiss you

Other times... punch you in the face

those a just a few of the words from rihanna's song complicated.
i feel it describes boys perfectly. or at least how i feel about them.
yes boys suck. buuut. i dont really have room to complain.
girls suck just as much if not worse.
i have my guard up right now. i guess its from getting so hurt lately.
im not usually this closed.
but boys just have some sorta power over us girls.
right now my two best friends have boyfriends.
Kari. is dating my cousin Bryson. they go perfectly together.
Kate. she is dating one of my best guy friends shawn.
proud to say i set them up. they are the cutest couple.
i am so happy for both of them.
being single isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
though i would love to have someone to cuddle with.
i have to time to find myself and figure out what i really need.
not just want.
so even though right now i am so sick of boys.
i still got one on my mind.

My friend of the month.

KATE:

Kate and i have never been closer than we are now.
she is funny.
smart.
gorgeous.
understanding.
she is what everyone could ever ask for in a friend.
sure we have had our differences.
but in the end we are back to where we started.
being best friends.
and maybe even closer than we were before.
she gets me.
in a way that most people dont.
she left for california for a week and i almost died.
i love this girl.

.FRIENDS.

"I don't remember how we happened to meet each other. I don't remember who got along with whom first. All I can remember is all of us together...always."

where would i be without my friends?
hell. to be straight forward.
each of my friends have a very different purpose.
but i love them each the same.
my friends keep me going day to day and month to month.

today i saw kate. and i hadnt seen her for a week.
not very long i know.
but a long time when you spend every minute with her.
and i realized how much i need my friends.
then there is Brin and Haley.
wow. two funniest girls i know.
they make everything funny.
and its so easy to be around them.
i dont know.
after this thanksgiving break it was good to have our group back together.
it was weird not seeing them everyday.
everyone was so happy to see everyone.
it was just a really good start back into school.
i love my friends(:

restart.

wow. i havent blogged since what? march. well here goes. im gonna try again.

so...EVERYTHING is different. and im not exaggerating when i say that. life is treating me really good. but at the same time things have gone incredibly wrong in the last couple months. but from where i am standing now i just look back at it all and laugh. life chooses the most interesting ways to teach you. but i guess its good. cause it keeps me on the edge. makes life in utah a little less boring. The life lessons i have learned these past months are ones that i desperately needed to learn. i have learned how to forgive forget and move on and how much i really need my family. those are just two. everything lately seems to be making a path to something that is coming my way but i have yet to find out what it is. all in all. life is good. i love it. and everyone in it. i cannot believe how lucky i am. and i give credit to everyone and everything around me.