a shift

a while back. i posted this. 
then things progressed. and i posted this.
his name is Tyson Brent Keetch. he is twenty two years and five months old. he stands six feet tall. and has a muscular build. he has bright blue eyes that notice every little thing. he has dimples and a cleft chin with perfectly white straight teeth behind lips that form a perfect smile. he makes me happy and comfortable. not only with what we have. but with myself. he lets me know that being myself is what really matters. he hangs out with my family in the kitchen while we all cook, eat & talk. i hang out with his family on his back porch talking laughing and watching movies. when its just me and him. we become completely immature and childish. we laugh. we play fight and sometimes we sit and just have staring contests. he knows more about me than i do. only because he can read every emotion that crosses my face. i have learned that relationships are not easy. that saying bye is one of the hardest things to do. and having to watch him drive away knowing that i wont see him the next day pulls at my heart strings. having to be away from him at college has made me realize some things. one. that while we were together i took it for granted. two. that his smile is what gets me through so many things. and three. that i love him. really love him. i wake up everyday thinking about him and go to sleep every night praying that he is doing okay. love is a scary thing. a very scary thing. because you put yourself completely at risk. but i dont care anymore. he is the most respectful kind amazing man i have ever known. and if its my choice i am never letting him go. so i would like to publicly announce. i am in love. completely. and yes it scares me. it is a shift in my life. but i know he will take care of me. college will only make us stronger. and we are going to be okay. im the luckiest girl in the world.

the world of college.

well this is different.
COL/LEGE: 

a. An institution of higher learning that grants the bachelor's degree in liberal arts or science or both.

b. An undergraduate division or school of a university offering courses and granting degrees in a particular field.

c. A school, sometimes but not always a university, offering special instruction in professional or technical subjects.

the word college i already deeply dislike. why? because i associate it with one.hundred math problems, writing too long of papers with words i didnt know existed, one.hundred and sixty dollar textbooks and a bank account holding the amount of twenty two dollars.


A/PART/MENT:

a. a room or a group of related rooms, among similar sets in one building, designed for use as a dwelling.

b. a building containing or made up of such rooms.

c. any separated room or group of rooms in a house or other dwelling: We heard cries from an apartment at the back of the house.

d. apartments, British . a set of rooms used as a dwelling by one person or one family.

however, on the other hand the word apartment...i love. yes, the fact that it gives me a place to sleep and get away from this ridiculous heat is very nice. but. my apartment is my home away from home. where at any given time of the day there are at least four people there coming just to see me and my sister. it is my cozy little place to get away from everything. and if needed everyone. also. im living with my best friend and sister. so that helps. i can decorate it any way that i want and if needed i can walk around in my underwear and no one can tell me to put clothes on. because i am paying for it. it feels nice to know that i am paying for my place to stay.




life is good right now. despite the fact that i have to go to school im okay with it. only because i know it will bring me my future. yes i miss my family and and my boyfriend. but sometimes missing people makes you realize how lucky you are to have people like them in your life.

please excuse my absence.

i am back in the internet world. i have finally caught back up with life. its seems to love to run away.

you will need

a house like this.

boys like this.

a chair like this.

fish like this.

snacks like this.

shoes like this.

a swimsuit and snorkel like this.

and art like this.

to make your trip to bahamas complete. 

so far this trip.

has definitely paid off. 

i would officially like to let the world know.

im the luckiest teenager out there.

thanks for the trip fam.

what goes around.

definitely comes back around. i have now seen it with my own eyes. though it took a year and a month of my time. i realized you werent anything like i thought you were. you lied. you cheated. you took. and you hurt me. now look at you. and look at me. i dont ever think of you. i never ever wish i could see you. i threw out all your letters. and threw away all your pictures. im living life still. just with out you. with someone new. and he is everything you wish you could be.

im so glad you blew it.

im so glad i dodged a bullet.

im so over you.

baby.

 good lookin out.

goodbye&hello.

goodbye utah. actually. goodbye united states of america. I love my country and all. but it has bore me to tears. so I have found a new place of residence. for the next 9days that is. sandyport nassau bahamas. if you are trying to contact me. you should stop. my phone is disabled for the time being. I hope you understand. if you need to find me ill be lounging on the beach. soaking up the sun. being served virgin bahama mamas by dark skinned males. the events of the past two days have gone as follow. go to sleep at 3am. wake up at 7am. finish packing. drive to airport. Get on plain. get off plain. get on plain. get off plain. for the last time. arrive in bahamas. pick up luggage. find taxi. drive to the house. call my mother. let her know im safe. call the boyfriend. let him know im safe. and I miss him. let soren convince me I wanna go swimming. go swimming at 2pm the morning. go to the grocery store. come home. talk some more. sleep. wake up. Pick up nick from the airport. come home. sleep. go to lunch. go to the beach. come home. rent a movie. blog. its been quite a relaxing day. not having to worry about any of my worries and just live. it feels absolutely wondrous. I could get used to this. I was nervous to come.now nervous to leave. life is good. life is great. life is wonderful.

funny faces and flowers.

I consider myself lucky. very lucky. I mean what girl comes home from work to find that her boyfriend has left two dozen of her favorite color roses on the kitchen table? it is hard to find guys like him. ones that dance with you in the kitchen and sit in your room and take endless amounts of pictures of us making silly faces. yuup. I gotta winner. no debate there. I have been with him twenty four seven the last month. And I still can't get enough of him. I get these stupid butterflies everytime he looks at me that makes me feel like im six. And I love it. he kisses my forehead and whispers in my ear picks me up and spins me around. I guess I can't get over how amazing he is. how did I get so lucky. goodness.