you will need

a house like this.

boys like this.

a chair like this.

fish like this.

snacks like this.

shoes like this.

a swimsuit and snorkel like this.

and art like this.

to make your trip to bahamas complete. 

so far this trip.

has definitely paid off. 

i would officially like to let the world know.

im the luckiest teenager out there.

thanks for the trip fam.

fire away.

when in desperate need of pain relief. i have figured out the perfect remedy. to scare pain away. first you will need a handful of friends. that you can be yourself around. you will need stretchy black pants and an oh so comfortable baggy shirt. you will need an oversized chocolate shake brought to you by your loving mother that gives way tooo many kisses on your cheeks because she claims that they are chubby. they wont be chubby for long. so i'll take advantage of this.  you will need a giant bottle of ibuprofen. a yankees world series baseball cap. skull candy headphones that were purchessed for you. prefferably blue.  you will also need your summer crush sitting next to you rubbing your back. maybe even holding your hand. and showing you funny jokes and good songs on his phone to keep you distracted. but. the thing you will need the most. is a blessing from your daddy letting you know that you are gonna get better soon. mix all of these things up into one big bowl and its the best pain pill you will ever take. no sickness is gonna mess with me now. come on pain. hit me with your best shot.

fire away.

how to survive

after getting your wisdom teeth ripped from your mouth.

1: never use a camera right after the surgery.you will end up with pictures like this.

i guess i thought i looked cute.

2: never use a cellular device right after surgery.(it will save you from embarrassment). you will send texts like: i want shrimp, i wanna go fishing, and i wanna cuddle with ruca.

now onto the things you will need...

3: pills. and lots of them.

4: ice cream brought by friends. preferably breyers. its soft smooth and cold. cold helps sooth the pain.

5: an ipad. this will keep you sane while laying in your bed for the next 48hours of your life.

netflix has been a life saver.

6: a cell phone. only to be used responsibly. meaning after hours of sleep.

7: a box full of goodies to make your mouth feel and taste less disgusting.

the one the surgeon gave you.

8: a best friend. the same best friend that came over. then left to get you ice cream.

a miss kourtney dinehart.

9: a boy with dimples blue eyes and an amazing mustache that will just lay there with you and rub your back.

and when you are dizzy. hold your hand when you walk.

so you dont fall.

10: a boy that makes you smile so much your swollen cheeks hurt.

this should be the same boy as before.

and last. 

but most definitely not least.

11: lots and lots of music that either helps you fall asleep or keeps you awake.

he is we will do the trick.

say hello

to ashtynn and lexi fairbanks.

these two names are the definition of my summer. 

everyday all day.

they are my new best friends.

yupp.

you got it.

im a nanny,

(( lexi ))

(( ashtynn ))

(( the both if us ))

(( the both of them ))

let me tell you something.

i think i have fallen madly in friendship with these girls.

a story of a boy.

this is a story of a boy.
a boy who grew up in switzerland.
a boy who was born on september 13th.
a boy who goes against the world.
a boy who is gay.
a boy who does not care what you think of it.
a boy who has creative powers.
a boy who loves lamas and owls.
a boy who will tell you his opinion.
a boy who isnt scared of what he can do.
a boy who isnt afraid to love.
a boy who knows just what you are thinking.
a boy who will not judge you.
a boy named soren jensen.


so this is a story of a boy.
a boy that i love like a brother.
but that.
coincidentally.
ended up being my cousin.
and best friend.

the last two weeks.
i have tried to focus on things i dont usually focus on.
i guess you could say.
the little things.
and let me tell ya.
its made me really grateful for everything.
for example.
this morning.
i had to go to attendance school.
had to be there at 6:15am.
so naturally.
i wasnt completely ready when i got in the car.
i was putting on my shoes.
and forgot to grab socks.
so yes.
my mother.
being the kind lady that she is.
took the socks off her feet.
and gave them to me.
now i dont have to go sockless.
its the little things like that.
that make you who you are.
kari.
she is exactly like this as well.
never does anything huge for me.
just lots of small things.
which means way more to me.
also.
my sister.
she always is doing little things.
that sadly.
i have taken for granted.
im trying not to anymore.
and appreciate the people in my life.
that do so much for me.

sunday sunday sunday.

3:10pm.

Kari comes over for our usual movie sunday.

(Anastasia)

3:45pm

i fall asleep watching anastasia.

4:25pm

Kari runs home for family dinner.

and boyds birthday bash.

7:30pm

soren arrives at my house.

7:40pm

Kari arrives once again.

things start to get weird.

8:00pm

things go off the deep end.

soren cant control his urges.

so it gets smelly.

kari gets slap happy.

whats new.

which makes me slap happy.

which makes her even more slap happy.

which makes me even more slap happy.

...

you get the picture.

8:10pm

soren discovers the space under the vent.

never seen someone so curious&interested in something so...boring?

we call tj and tell him to come over.

8:20pm

we go upstairs.

the dogs attack us.

soren finds the dust blower.

not a good thing.

soren attacks kari with it.

we think she pees.

but thankfully.

this time she didnt.

8:40pm

tj arrives as hungry as can be.

kari serves him ALL the food in my house.

and doesnt leave any.

(FAST FORWARD)

11:45pm

kari is still over.

(i wont let her leave)

still slap happy.

has happy hands now.

we are tired.

so naturally we find everything funny.

EVERYTHING.

we have taken multiple pictures on iphoto.

which i probably will not remember half of them in the morning.

we are just on one.

and still goin strong.

nights like these are what best friends are for.