fire away.

when in desperate need of pain relief. i have figured out the perfect remedy. to scare pain away. first you will need a handful of friends. that you can be yourself around. you will need stretchy black pants and an oh so comfortable baggy shirt. you will need an oversized chocolate shake brought to you by your loving mother that gives way tooo many kisses on your cheeks because she claims that they are chubby. they wont be chubby for long. so i'll take advantage of this.  you will need a giant bottle of ibuprofen. a yankees world series baseball cap. skull candy headphones that were purchessed for you. prefferably blue.  you will also need your summer crush sitting next to you rubbing your back. maybe even holding your hand. and showing you funny jokes and good songs on his phone to keep you distracted. but. the thing you will need the most. is a blessing from your daddy letting you know that you are gonna get better soon. mix all of these things up into one big bowl and its the best pain pill you will ever take. no sickness is gonna mess with me now. come on pain. hit me with your best shot.

fire away.

i like it

when tj stops by to see me. out of the blue.

i like surprises.

and i definitely needed a surprise like him today.

even though my face has...

probably doubled.

he still tells me im pretty.

and since my self esteem is down the tube for the day.

that felt pretty good to hear.

even though we dated.

 then "broke up".

we have managed to still stay pretty close.

i love it.

ohh tj. thanks for the sunday surprise.

i needed it.

how to survive

after getting your wisdom teeth ripped from your mouth.

1: never use a camera right after the surgery.you will end up with pictures like this.

i guess i thought i looked cute.

2: never use a cellular device right after surgery.(it will save you from embarrassment). you will send texts like: i want shrimp, i wanna go fishing, and i wanna cuddle with ruca.

now onto the things you will need...

3: pills. and lots of them.

4: ice cream brought by friends. preferably breyers. its soft smooth and cold. cold helps sooth the pain.

5: an ipad. this will keep you sane while laying in your bed for the next 48hours of your life.

netflix has been a life saver.

6: a cell phone. only to be used responsibly. meaning after hours of sleep.

7: a box full of goodies to make your mouth feel and taste less disgusting.

the one the surgeon gave you.

8: a best friend. the same best friend that came over. then left to get you ice cream.

a miss kourtney dinehart.

9: a boy with dimples blue eyes and an amazing mustache that will just lay there with you and rub your back.

and when you are dizzy. hold your hand when you walk.

so you dont fall.

10: a boy that makes you smile so much your swollen cheeks hurt.

this should be the same boy as before.

and last. 

but most definitely not least.

11: lots and lots of music that either helps you fall asleep or keeps you awake.

he is we will do the trick.