i got myself a winner.
seriously though.
he beats me at ping pong every time.
it kills me.
Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts
Showing posts with label boys. Show all posts
i wrote a song.
i wrote a song today.
you know.
for that boy of mine.
im quite please with its turn out.
maybe one day i'll record it.
and put it up.
he is the greatest.
hes my sexy beast.
and im his tasty cupcake.
he is just delightful to be with.
im a veryveryvery blessed young lady.
guys.
its a wonderful life.
another one.
guys.
he is back.
this calls for two words.
and two words only.
{those with sensitive eyes. please skip the next line}
hell ya.
no longer do i feel alone.
and extremely uncomfortably bored.
my best friend is back.
and now.
i can finally begin the new year.
being in love.
is the worst.
{in the best way possible}
best thing.
anyone could ever do.
i recommend
everyone at least consider it.
once you dip your toes in.
there is absolutely.
no way you can refuse it.
completely twitterpated.
today is the day.
so after this.
there will be no more annoying.
{i need my boyfriend}
blog posts.
i can promise you that.
i think.
i am counting down.
i need to stay sane.
he doesnt get home till ten or eleven.
so i must find things to do all day.
ill try to be productive.
but i cant promise anything.
i am just a ball of nerves.
i am completely twitterpated.
i cannot wait.
to see that handsome face of his.
a shift
a while back. i posted this.
then things progressed. and i posted this.
his name is Tyson Brent Keetch. he is twenty two years and five months old. he stands six feet tall. and has a muscular build. he has bright blue eyes that notice every little thing. he has dimples and a cleft chin with perfectly white straight teeth behind lips that form a perfect smile. he makes me happy and comfortable. not only with what we have. but with myself. he lets me know that being myself is what really matters. he hangs out with my family in the kitchen while we all cook, eat & talk. i hang out with his family on his back porch talking laughing and watching movies. when its just me and him. we become completely immature and childish. we laugh. we play fight and sometimes we sit and just have staring contests. he knows more about me than i do. only because he can read every emotion that crosses my face. i have learned that relationships are not easy. that saying bye is one of the hardest things to do. and having to watch him drive away knowing that i wont see him the next day pulls at my heart strings. having to be away from him at college has made me realize some things. one. that while we were together i took it for granted. two. that his smile is what gets me through so many things. and three. that i love him. really love him. i wake up everyday thinking about him and go to sleep every night praying that he is doing okay. love is a scary thing. a very scary thing. because you put yourself completely at risk. but i dont care anymore. he is the most respectful kind amazing man i have ever known. and if its my choice i am never letting him go. so i would like to publicly announce. i am in love. completely. and yes it scares me. it is a shift in my life. but i know he will take care of me. college will only make us stronger. and we are going to be okay. im the luckiest girl in the world.
then things progressed. and i posted this.
his name is Tyson Brent Keetch. he is twenty two years and five months old. he stands six feet tall. and has a muscular build. he has bright blue eyes that notice every little thing. he has dimples and a cleft chin with perfectly white straight teeth behind lips that form a perfect smile. he makes me happy and comfortable. not only with what we have. but with myself. he lets me know that being myself is what really matters. he hangs out with my family in the kitchen while we all cook, eat & talk. i hang out with his family on his back porch talking laughing and watching movies. when its just me and him. we become completely immature and childish. we laugh. we play fight and sometimes we sit and just have staring contests. he knows more about me than i do. only because he can read every emotion that crosses my face. i have learned that relationships are not easy. that saying bye is one of the hardest things to do. and having to watch him drive away knowing that i wont see him the next day pulls at my heart strings. having to be away from him at college has made me realize some things. one. that while we were together i took it for granted. two. that his smile is what gets me through so many things. and three. that i love him. really love him. i wake up everyday thinking about him and go to sleep every night praying that he is doing okay. love is a scary thing. a very scary thing. because you put yourself completely at risk. but i dont care anymore. he is the most respectful kind amazing man i have ever known. and if its my choice i am never letting him go. so i would like to publicly announce. i am in love. completely. and yes it scares me. it is a shift in my life. but i know he will take care of me. college will only make us stronger. and we are going to be okay. im the luckiest girl in the world.
funny faces and flowers.
I consider myself lucky. very lucky. I mean what girl comes home from work to find that her boyfriend has left two dozen of her favorite color roses on the kitchen table? it is hard to find guys like him. ones that dance with you in the kitchen and sit in your room and take endless amounts of pictures of us making silly faces. yuup. I gotta winner. no debate there. I have been with him twenty four seven the last month. And I still can't get enough of him. I get these stupid butterflies everytime he looks at me that makes me feel like im six. And I love it. he kisses my forehead and whispers in my ear picks me up and spins me around. I guess I can't get over how amazing he is. how did I get so lucky. goodness.
how to survive
after getting your wisdom teeth ripped from your mouth.
1: never use a camera right after the surgery.you will end up with pictures like this.
i guess i thought i looked cute.
2: never use a cellular device right after surgery.(it will save you from embarrassment). you will send texts like: i want shrimp, i wanna go fishing, and i wanna cuddle with ruca.
now onto the things you will need...
3: pills. and lots of them.
4: ice cream brought by friends. preferably breyers. its soft smooth and cold. cold helps sooth the pain.
5: an ipad. this will keep you sane while laying in your bed for the next 48hours of your life.
netflix has been a life saver.
6: a cell phone. only to be used responsibly. meaning after hours of sleep.
7: a box full of goodies to make your mouth feel and taste less disgusting.
the one the surgeon gave you.
8: a best friend. the same best friend that came over. then left to get you ice cream.
a miss kourtney dinehart.
9: a boy with dimples blue eyes and an amazing mustache that will just lay there with you and rub your back.
and when you are dizzy. hold your hand when you walk.
so you dont fall.
10: a boy that makes you smile so much your swollen cheeks hurt.
this should be the same boy as before.
and last.
but most definitely not least.
11: lots and lots of music that either helps you fall asleep or keeps you awake.
he is we will do the trick.
the good news is
even when life is hard. God always gives something that helps you keep going on. he has definitely given me something that has kept me from breaking down in this last month. with my parents big move to saudi arabia in august and my big move down to school. my stress level has sky rocketed. and being my same stubborn self. i have held it all in. and acted like i wasnt scared at all. crying was out of the picture. and when people asked. i was perfectly fine with my parents moving across the world. but the truth is. im not okay with it. and i want to cry. i want to ball. God has indeed blessed me. with a friend that tells me i am strong. and that i can get through this. that tells me that its okay to cry. and it doesnt mean i am a baby. it means that i care. i know that everything is going to be okay. and even when i have doubts i have this friend that tells me its going to be okay. like i said. God always gives us something to help us keep pressing on. and this time. God gave me a friend like him.
he
sits in my car and sings along to n'sync with me.
he will willingly watch a scary movie with me.
he opens every door and pulls out every chair for me.
he keeps my mind off of my stresses.
he makes me laugh. really laugh.
he is okay with me being really different.
he is the most respectful man i have ever met.
i found someone special.
and we just might have something special.
"id rather be with you, say you want the same thing too"
he will willingly watch a scary movie with me.
he opens every door and pulls out every chair for me.
he keeps my mind off of my stresses.
he makes me laugh. really laugh.
he is okay with me being really different.
he is the most respectful man i have ever met.
i found someone special.
and we just might have something special.
"id rather be with you, say you want the same thing too"
all is fair in love and war.
all is fair in love and war.
i cant decide if i believe that.
because its not fair.
its not fair that i feel this way about you.
and its not fair that every time i take that first step.
taking my guard down and letting you in.
i get hurt.
not just hurt. but pretty much murdered.
my mom accuses me with giving my whole heart to people.
much too fast.
and im starting to see what she means.
i cant decide if i believe that.
because its not fair.
its not fair that i feel this way about you.
and its not fair that every time i take that first step.
taking my guard down and letting you in.
i get hurt.
not just hurt. but pretty much murdered.
my mom accuses me with giving my whole heart to people.
much too fast.
and im starting to see what she means.
if you read any of my other posts. youll see that i use music to represent some of my feelings. well most of my feelings as a matter of fact. and the song that i listen to now while dealing with this new found hurt of mine. christina aguilera. you lost me. not all the song completely matches the situation. but a lot of the lines in the song state my feelings exactly. "she has won. now its no fun. weve lost it all. the love is gone.and we had magic and this is tragic" "i feel like a worlds been infected. and some how you left me neglected. we found our lives been changed. babe. you lost me." "and we tried oh how we cried. we lost ourselves. the love is died.and though we tried. we cant deny. were left as shells we lost a fight." is there ever a point where, even though it hurts. you just need to give up and move on. because i think i might be at that point. because this time the more i think i about you the more it seems to confuse me and hurt me. and i cant deal with it.
you see.
i honestly felt like this was different.
i thought maybe this time we could make it work.
i was so happy.
like i always am.
when you are in my life.
you get me. you really know me.
and we have so much fun.
but i guess sometimes that is just not enough.
you had me so excited with what we really could be.
honestly.
i do want you to be happy.
and if you are happy.
then its time for me to pick up.
and move on.
goodbye.
heartbreakwarefare.
honestly.
sometimes my mind can be the biggest brat i know.
when i am not interested in any body.
everything is easy.
and everything makes sense to me.
the thought of loving someone doesn't scare me.
loving someone actually seems easy.
but then...
right when my heart.
feels any spark of interest.
in any body.
my brain.
sends a signal to the rest of my body.
that its time to build those walls back up again.
my brain is constantly brewing thoughts.
like.
why put in the effort.?
he will only hurt you.
things will eventually end.
you will have to break up.
so why waste your time.?
you have other.
more important things to focus on...
at first these thoughts dont phase me.
but slowly they start to fester.
into each crack and crevice in my body and brain.
until they finally win.
in result.
i push away any feelings.
that i once had for a person.
and sometimes.
i push that person away completely.
to the point where we dont even talk.
i can always settle to be friends.
but there comes a point when i dont want to be just friends.
so my heart and mind are constantly fighting a battle.
usually my mind wins.
on a few.
very few.
occasions my heart has won.
but in the end my mind wins.
every thought that i had becomes true.
this doesnt help my case.
the truth is.
i have someone that is amazing.
handsome.
a gentleman.
funny.
smart.
caring.
a really good friend.
but with potential to be more.
like always.
i am scared to let my feelings for him go anywhere.
because then the walls will just build themselves back up.
and once they are up.
i dont know how to pull them down.
but one day things will be good.
so im gonna go with the flow.
everything will work itself out.
in the words of john mayer.
"its a heartbreak warfare"
honestly.
sometimes my mind can be the biggest brat i know.
when i am not interested in any body.
everything is easy.
and everything makes sense to me.
the thought of loving someone doesn't scare me.
loving someone actually seems easy.
but then...
right when my heart.
feels any spark of interest.
in any body.
my brain.
sends a signal to the rest of my body.
that its time to build those walls back up again.
my brain is constantly brewing thoughts.
like.
why put in the effort.?
he will only hurt you.
things will eventually end.
you will have to break up.
so why waste your time.?
you have other.
more important things to focus on...
at first these thoughts dont phase me.
but slowly they start to fester.
into each crack and crevice in my body and brain.
until they finally win.
in result.
i push away any feelings.
that i once had for a person.
and sometimes.
i push that person away completely.
to the point where we dont even talk.
i can always settle to be friends.
but there comes a point when i dont want to be just friends.
so my heart and mind are constantly fighting a battle.
usually my mind wins.
on a few.
very few.
occasions my heart has won.
but in the end my mind wins.
every thought that i had becomes true.
this doesnt help my case.
the truth is.
i have someone that is amazing.
handsome.
a gentleman.
funny.
smart.
caring.
a really good friend.
but with potential to be more.
like always.
i am scared to let my feelings for him go anywhere.
because then the walls will just build themselves back up.
and once they are up.
i dont know how to pull them down.
but one day things will be good.
so im gonna go with the flow.
everything will work itself out.
in the words of john mayer.
"its a heartbreak warfare"
a story of a boy.
this is a story of a boy.
a boy who grew up in switzerland.
a boy who was born on september 13th.
a boy who goes against the world.
a boy who is gay.
a boy who does not care what you think of it.
a boy who has creative powers.
a boy who loves lamas and owls.
a boy who will tell you his opinion.
a boy who isnt scared of what he can do.
a boy who isnt afraid to love.
a boy who knows just what you are thinking.
a boy who will not judge you.
a boy named soren jensen.
so this is a story of a boy.
a boy that i love like a brother.
but that.
coincidentally.
ended up being my cousin.
and best friend.
a boy who grew up in switzerland.
a boy who was born on september 13th.
a boy who goes against the world.
a boy who is gay.
a boy who does not care what you think of it.
a boy who has creative powers.
a boy who loves lamas and owls.
a boy who will tell you his opinion.
a boy who isnt scared of what he can do.
a boy who isnt afraid to love.
a boy who knows just what you are thinking.
a boy who will not judge you.
a boy named soren jensen.
so this is a story of a boy.
a boy that i love like a brother.
but that.
coincidentally.
ended up being my cousin.
and best friend.
BOYS.
You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)
You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)
Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you, oh I hate it
Cause if ya really wanna be alone
I will throw my hands up cause baby I tried
Everything with you is so complicated
Oh, why?
Sometimes I get you
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes it's you I can't stand
Sometimes I wanna hug you
Sometimes I wanna push you away
Most times I wanna kiss you
You're not easy to love (no)
You're not easy to love
You're not easy to love (no)
Why is everything with you so complicated?
Why do you make it hard to love you, oh I hate it
Cause if ya really wanna be alone
I will throw my hands up cause baby I tried
Everything with you is so complicated
Oh, why?
Sometimes I get you
Sometimes I don't understand
Sometimes I love you
Sometimes it's you I can't stand
Sometimes I wanna hug you
Sometimes I wanna push you away
Most times I wanna kiss you
Other times... punch you in the face
those a just a few of the words from rihanna's song complicated.
i feel it describes boys perfectly. or at least how i feel about them.
yes boys suck. buuut. i dont really have room to complain.
girls suck just as much if not worse.
i have my guard up right now. i guess its from getting so hurt lately.
im not usually this closed.
but boys just have some sorta power over us girls.
right now my two best friends have boyfriends.
Kari. is dating my cousin Bryson. they go perfectly together.
Kate. she is dating one of my best guy friends shawn.
proud to say i set them up. they are the cutest couple.
i am so happy for both of them.
being single isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
though i would love to have someone to cuddle with.
i have to time to find myself and figure out what i really need.
not just want.
so even though right now i am so sick of boys.
i still got one on my mind.
i feel it describes boys perfectly. or at least how i feel about them.
yes boys suck. buuut. i dont really have room to complain.
girls suck just as much if not worse.
i have my guard up right now. i guess its from getting so hurt lately.
im not usually this closed.
but boys just have some sorta power over us girls.
right now my two best friends have boyfriends.
Kari. is dating my cousin Bryson. they go perfectly together.
Kate. she is dating one of my best guy friends shawn.
proud to say i set them up. they are the cutest couple.
i am so happy for both of them.
being single isnt as bad as i thought it would be.
though i would love to have someone to cuddle with.
i have to time to find myself and figure out what i really need.
not just want.
so even though right now i am so sick of boys.
i still got one on my mind.
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