change

change is hard. i will not deny that. i cannot say that i hate it. but saying that i like change would be a lie. you cant avoid change. its constant. there are good changes and and bad changes and the change in between. still. change all the same. at this point and time in my life. change is my constant companion. with moving back out. being on my own. not going back to school. to finding love. at times just thinking about dealing with the change scares me to tears. but. i have so much to thank change for. because change is what brings me to my knees every night. and change is what brings me closer to my heavenly father. change not only makes you emotionally stronger and teaches you life lessons. but it makes you spiritually stronger and teaches you spiritual lessons. that is something that i am learning. because it is the new year. like everyone else. i am thinking of the change that this new year brings. and the goals i want to set. i have the chance to control a small amount of change in my life. that will bring greater changes in the end. i have to choice now to look at all the change that goes on around me as a blessing. a test of my faith my strength and my maturity. because so much has already changed in this first week of the new year. i am setting my goals now to help me cope with the change that is still to come. if you please. you can call them my new years resolutions. this year i only have three. but if i stick to these three goals every part of my life will be influenced and strengthened. and a good change will occur. here they are:

one: become closer to my family. Heavenly Father. Jesus Christ. and always have the Holy Ghost. through daily prayer and studying the book of Mormon. really studying. it with the intent of strengthening my testimony.

two: exercise often. at least three times a week. because exercise produces endorphins. and endorphins make you happy. and having a positive happy attitude changes your prospective on life. and for me. change.

and three: become the person i would want to marry. this may seem broad. but it is very thought out. whether it is being able to keep a clean home. knowing how to cook. how to communicate. be more loving. be more understanding. anything and everything. i have so much to learn. and have a lot of personal changes i need to make to become the person i would want to marry.


these things. are the foundations i want to build my life upon. because if i do. i can go through any change and over come any hardship. though change is not my favorite friend right now. it is the friend that has done the most for me.