mrs. annie lawrence.

let me introduce annie. 

you can find her blog by clicking here.

many of you may be wondering why i am doing this. 

because of the hard feelings.

i have harbored for her.

in the past.

well those feelings are no more. 

the past is indeed the past.

i will be honest. 

i would actually love to get to know this girl.

her faith and testimony.

have kept me hopeful through many tribulations.

she is quite amazing.

and has a strength that i wish i had.

hopefully one day. 

we can be better friends. 

because she is the type of girl.

that is worth having in your life. 

because she has already changed my life.

without even being in it. 

so imagine the wonders she could do.

being apart of it.

so.

here is to you mrs. annie lawrence. 

cheers.

fathers

fathers are a blessing. 

dont take them for granted.

{sometimes they will even give you flowers}

clothes clothes clothes.

being as poor as i am. 

i will be shopping at di and savers.

and washing everything i purches.

at least twice. 

their clothes are better anyway.

the real version of what forever twenty-one is selling.

a friend once tweeted.

"i wish all the old people would die so their kids would take their clothes to di and savers so i can buy them."

as horrible as this sounds. 

it is slightly true.

but dont get me wrong. 

i do not want any of your grandparents.

or parents dying.

i just want their clothes.

an awkward. yet satisfying post.

one of the most unsexy things out there. as the {sexy} world calls them. granny panties. yet one of the most comfortable things any girl could own. im not saying my victoria secret underwear are not comfortable. because they are. but these things. its like lounge wear. slip into those and a sports bra and you and the notebook are set all day. though i would never leave my room in them {even when hidden underneath clothing} i would cuddle up in my bed in them. i might have to be rid of my ways once i have a husband. but until then. they will stay. im just being honest here. thats all. goodnight. sleep tight.

another one.

guys.

he is back.

this calls for two words.

and two words only.

{those with sensitive eyes. please skip the next line}

hell ya.

no longer do i feel alone.

and extremely uncomfortably bored.

my best friend is back.

and now. 

i can finally begin the new year.

being in love.

is the worst.

{in the best way possible}

best thing.

anyone could ever do.

i recommend 

everyone at least consider it.

once you dip your toes in.

there is absolutely.

no way you can refuse it.

completely twitterpated.

today is the day.

so after this.

there will be no more annoying.

{i need my boyfriend}

blog posts.

i can promise you that.

i think.

i am counting down.

i need to stay sane.

he doesnt get home till ten or eleven.

so i must find things to do all day. 

ill try to be productive.

but i cant promise anything.

i am just a ball of nerves.

i am completely twitterpated.

i cannot wait. 

to see that handsome face of his.

thanks mrs betty white.

"why do people say "grow some balls"? balls are week and sensitive. if you wanna be tough. grow a vagina. those things can take a pounding.

-mrs. betty white.

oh how i love her.
what is to be said about this quote?

enough said.

change

change is hard. i will not deny that. i cannot say that i hate it. but saying that i like change would be a lie. you cant avoid change. its constant. there are good changes and and bad changes and the change in between. still. change all the same. at this point and time in my life. change is my constant companion. with moving back out. being on my own. not going back to school. to finding love. at times just thinking about dealing with the change scares me to tears. but. i have so much to thank change for. because change is what brings me to my knees every night. and change is what brings me closer to my heavenly father. change not only makes you emotionally stronger and teaches you life lessons. but it makes you spiritually stronger and teaches you spiritual lessons. that is something that i am learning. because it is the new year. like everyone else. i am thinking of the change that this new year brings. and the goals i want to set. i have the chance to control a small amount of change in my life. that will bring greater changes in the end. i have to choice now to look at all the change that goes on around me as a blessing. a test of my faith my strength and my maturity. because so much has already changed in this first week of the new year. i am setting my goals now to help me cope with the change that is still to come. if you please. you can call them my new years resolutions. this year i only have three. but if i stick to these three goals every part of my life will be influenced and strengthened. and a good change will occur. here they are:

one: become closer to my family. Heavenly Father. Jesus Christ. and always have the Holy Ghost. through daily prayer and studying the book of Mormon. really studying. it with the intent of strengthening my testimony.

two: exercise often. at least three times a week. because exercise produces endorphins. and endorphins make you happy. and having a positive happy attitude changes your prospective on life. and for me. change.

and three: become the person i would want to marry. this may seem broad. but it is very thought out. whether it is being able to keep a clean home. knowing how to cook. how to communicate. be more loving. be more understanding. anything and everything. i have so much to learn. and have a lot of personal changes i need to make to become the person i would want to marry.


these things. are the foundations i want to build my life upon. because if i do. i can go through any change and over come any hardship. though change is not my favorite friend right now. it is the friend that has done the most for me.

let me complain

this trip of his might be killing me. ya. you suck florida. 

{my apologies for the harsh words.}

but honestly.

a little bit of random.

im back. after my short leave of absence. i am back. with not much news to bring. but enough that i will share. it is the new year. hopefully everyone has realized this by now. i am still choosing my new years resolutions. it is taking me quite some time. i know im behind. but these ones are important. this will be a big year for me. my new years eve was lovely. thanks for asking. it was a night full of good food and delightful people. and for that new years kiss. he gave it to me.the perfect way to step into this new. unknown. untouched year of ours. in the arms of my one and only. i will never deny that he is a blessing.

since january first i have moved out. i live in provo now. it was a scary. but rewarding change. i like it here. its cozy. my room is small. and i have to share a bathroom. but i can deal with that. its good to be on my own again. i am currently looking for a job. so if anyone knows a place. let me know.


he left me. yep. he left me. for florida. and he isnt coming back till next tuesday night. its already been three days. and i can hardly stand it. i never realized how mch time i spent with him. till he left. and i had nothing to do but sit in my room all day. miss that man like crazy. but i guess i'll learn to deal. whatever. 

and i am sick. i have this cold that might just be killing me. i sneeze and it gives me brain tumors. my throat is eating itself. and my head. pounds 318476837641873681748 times a second. but im not dead yet. i dont exactly understand how. but. i am grateful. 

i ate sushi for dinner today. it was just my cup of tea. exactly what i needed. then again. sushi is always what i need. so i dont really know what i am saying. cause honestly. every bite i ever take of sushi. my taste buds explode. i could eat it all day. its healthy for you right? cause i think i will go on a sushi diet. 

anyway. its twelvethirty. twothirty in florida if anyone is wondering. so i am off to bed. if my body will allow me to soak up some sleep. please. everyone pray i will still be living in the morning. so. goodnight. and hopefully.

its not my last.