families are good.
but when families are your friend...
they are even better.
let me explain.
my sister and i didnt get along...
up until the summer after 9th grade.
now she is my best friend.
(besides kari)
we tell each other everything.
from the boys we've kissed.
to the grade we got on our math test.
my brother and i have never been close.
but we actually have conversations now.
this is a MEGA step forward for me.
its not that we didnt get along.
we just didnt care to get to know one another.
now we care.
now on the the parentals...
most teenagers think their parents are out to get them.
right?
or am i just crazy.
up until august of '09.
this was my mind set.
my parents hated me.
they didnt like my style.
they didnt like my taste is boys.
they didnt like my music.
they didnt like me.
and blahh blahh blahh...
you get where im going.
but ever since we did stuff together as a family.
every saturday in new york.
me and my parents have gotten along much better.
butttt....
mostly what i want to talk about is my daddy.
my dad is awesome.
my mom was out of town this last couple days.
and we hung out.
i never thought hanging out with my dad could be fun
first he took me to a byu game.
we both love basketball so it was fun.
we really got into it.
and after that.
he took me to dinner.
the next day he took me and kari out to dinner.
yeah took both of us.
and on the way there he gave us boy advice.
haha.
this was awesome.
he talked about how he fell in love with my mom.
he is still madly in love with this woman.
its amazing.
then the next day.
he took me to a movie.
and bought me popcorn.
and a drink.
and he also thoroughly embarrassed me.
infront of one of my guy friends.
that works at the theater.
thanks dad!
and for today.
he took me to get ice cream.
drove me all the way to american fork.
just to go to karis work.
to get the exact ice cream.
and just to see kari.
all in all.
i never realized how good of a person my daddy is.
i guess i have never given him the time of day.
or even tried to know him.
but now that i know.
i can actually have fun with him.
im gonna make this one a habit.
sunday sunday sunday.
3:10pm.
Kari comes over for our usual movie sunday.
(Anastasia)
3:45pm
i fall asleep watching anastasia.
4:25pm
Kari runs home for family dinner.
and boyds birthday bash.
7:30pm
soren arrives at my house.
7:40pm
Kari arrives once again.
things start to get weird.
8:00pm
things go off the deep end.
soren cant control his urges.
so it gets smelly.
kari gets slap happy.
whats new.
which makes me slap happy.
which makes her even more slap happy.
which makes me even more slap happy.
...
you get the picture.
8:10pm
soren discovers the space under the vent.
never seen someone so curious&interested in something so...boring?
we call tj and tell him to come over.
8:20pm
we go upstairs.
the dogs attack us.
soren finds the dust blower.
not a good thing.
soren attacks kari with it.
we think she pees.
but thankfully.
this time she didnt.
8:40pm
tj arrives as hungry as can be.
kari serves him ALL the food in my house.
and doesnt leave any.
(FAST FORWARD)
11:45pm
kari is still over.
(i wont let her leave)
still slap happy.
has happy hands now.
we are tired.
so naturally we find everything funny.
EVERYTHING.
we have taken multiple pictures on iphoto.
which i probably will not remember half of them in the morning.
we are just on one.
and still goin strong.
nights like these are what best friends are for.
i can do hard things.
the last month and a half has been a trying one.
to say the least.
its that moment in my life where everything seems to be going terribly wrong.
school.
its going down hill.
one of my NYR was to graduate.
i thought that would be easy.
but...its not.
i havent been as close to some of my friends as i would like.
i have been learning way too much about myself.
sometimes.
i wish i could be a stranger to myself.
if that makes sense.
i have to remind myself everyday.
to get out of bed.
i have to push myself to get dressed.
and i have to have my mother pull me out the door.
to get to school.
my senior year isnt everything i thought it would be.
its been better.
and its been worse.
in all.
completely different than i thought it would be.
i have to remember though.
that there are so SO many people around me.
that really love me.
not that fake it to get higher socially.
not that only like me for my looks.
not that like me because of things i may have.
sometimes i forget that.
but i need to focus more on the people that love me for me.
that will make things easier.
life is unfair.
life is crazy.
life is hard.
but i just need to remember everyday.
I CAN DO HARD THINGS.
to say the least.
its that moment in my life where everything seems to be going terribly wrong.
school.
its going down hill.
one of my NYR was to graduate.
i thought that would be easy.
but...its not.
i havent been as close to some of my friends as i would like.
i have been learning way too much about myself.
sometimes.
i wish i could be a stranger to myself.
if that makes sense.
i have to remind myself everyday.
to get out of bed.
i have to push myself to get dressed.
and i have to have my mother pull me out the door.
to get to school.
my senior year isnt everything i thought it would be.
its been better.
and its been worse.
in all.
completely different than i thought it would be.
i have to remember though.
that there are so SO many people around me.
that really love me.
not that fake it to get higher socially.
not that only like me for my looks.
not that like me because of things i may have.
sometimes i forget that.
but i need to focus more on the people that love me for me.
that will make things easier.
life is unfair.
life is crazy.
life is hard.
but i just need to remember everyday.
I CAN DO HARD THINGS.
IF LIFE WAS LIKE FACEBOOK
everyone would have a floating sentence over their head.
called a status.
everyone would know everything about your life.
without ever saying a word to you.
everyone would change ten times a day.
so there "profile picture"
would make them look cute for whoever they are talking to.
everyone would hate everyone.
because of how much trash talk goes on.
everyone would always look pretty.
the days they feel they look ugly.
they'd just delete so no one could see it.
you would only see everyone...
from their "good side".
pretty much facebook is a disaster.
everyone would have a floating sentence over their head.
called a status.
everyone would know everything about your life.
without ever saying a word to you.
everyone would change ten times a day.
so there "profile picture"
would make them look cute for whoever they are talking to.
everyone would hate everyone.
because of how much trash talk goes on.
everyone would always look pretty.
the days they feel they look ugly.
they'd just delete so no one could see it.
you would only see everyone...
from their "good side".
pretty much facebook is a disaster.
i sat on the computer today.
doing the usual facebook stalking.
everyone has that one person they love to look at cause they seem so cool.
(most of us dont like to admit it).
and pretending like i am doing my homework.
i unconsciously played the same song 25 times.
my itunes kept track for me.
somehow ingrid never gets old.
never.
then after i realized how bored i was on facebook.
i blog stalked.
let me tell you...
this is very addicting.
some blogs make you feel so good about yourself.
and others.
make you feel incredibly boring.
either way.
they are all completely different.
which i love.
every blog has its own personality.
some people post way too much information.
and some only post one line.
i learn more about some people in one blog post.
than i would all my years of highschool.
i waste a lot of time on the computer.
according to my mother.
but in my defense.
i am always learning new things.
(haleyy)
doing the usual facebook stalking.
everyone has that one person they love to look at cause they seem so cool.
(most of us dont like to admit it).
and pretending like i am doing my homework.
i unconsciously played the same song 25 times.
my itunes kept track for me.
somehow ingrid never gets old.
never.
then after i realized how bored i was on facebook.
i blog stalked.
let me tell you...
this is very addicting.
some blogs make you feel so good about yourself.
and others.
make you feel incredibly boring.
either way.
they are all completely different.
which i love.
every blog has its own personality.
some people post way too much information.
and some only post one line.
i learn more about some people in one blog post.
than i would all my years of highschool.
i waste a lot of time on the computer.
according to my mother.
but in my defense.
i am always learning new things.
(haleyy)
day2
my NYR update.
im one more step closer to my goal.
i wrote another page of piano music. this means i am at three minutes.
my goal is five. im almost there.
i skipped seminary today and made cookies.
does that mean im one step farther away from my ending goal?
oops...the cookies weren't even good.
i finished all my homework early today and it felt niice.
i guess that means i am closer to graduating highschool.
...and going to college.
i guess thats all for my new years resolutions.
im one more step closer to my goal.
i wrote another page of piano music. this means i am at three minutes.
my goal is five. im almost there.
i skipped seminary today and made cookies.
does that mean im one step farther away from my ending goal?
oops...the cookies weren't even good.
i finished all my homework early today and it felt niice.
i guess that means i am closer to graduating highschool.
...and going to college.
i guess thats all for my new years resolutions.
I SPY WITH MY LITTLE EYE
something new.
something forgotten.
and
something missed.
something new:
a new friend.
something i greatly needed.
haley came into my life at the perfect time.
when i see her.
i see me.
she's a friend i'll never give up.
something forgotten:
every time i see this picture.
i remember the moment i took it.
i forget about the experience i had in the DR much to often.
thankfully.
i have pictures like these to remember it.
something missed:
my big sister.
she has been moved out for..
six months now?
i think i didnt realize how much she ment to me when she was here.
and now she is gone.
i miss her so much.
something new.
something forgotten.
and
something missed.
something new:
a new friend.something i greatly needed.
haley came into my life at the perfect time.
when i see her.
i see me.
she's a friend i'll never give up.
something forgotten:
every time i see this picture.
i remember the moment i took it.
i forget about the experience i had in the DR much to often.
thankfully.
i have pictures like these to remember it.
something missed:
my big sister.
she has been moved out for..
six months now?
i think i didnt realize how much she ment to me when she was here.
and now she is gone.
i miss her so much.
.day1.
well. this post will be short.
i learned something about my dad today.
he was practically attacked by a bunch of black kids in the ghetto on in mission in queens new york. that would be scary i wont lie.
also. i got my math book i need to finish my math packets. which i need to graduate.
look at me go. haha
two steps closer to by goal. hopefully i'll keep this up. today has been long tiring.
and well. boring. tomorrow will be better. i know it.
well...
i learned something about my dad today.
he was practically attacked by a bunch of black kids in the ghetto on in mission in queens new york. that would be scary i wont lie.
also. i got my math book i need to finish my math packets. which i need to graduate.
look at me go. haha
two steps closer to by goal. hopefully i'll keep this up. today has been long tiring.
and well. boring. tomorrow will be better. i know it.
well...
goodnight.
.DAY BY DAY.
"HEY WHAT CLASS DO I HAVE NEXT?"
i cannot count how many times a day i forget what i am doing.
lately the main thing i forget..
where to be next.
today.
so far.
i have asked three different people what my next class is.
dont you love that?
lately the main thing i forget..
where to be next.
today.
so far.
i have asked three different people what my next class is.
dont you love that?
wanna know what makes it worse?
why do i think they will know.its like walking into a room of
complete strangers and expecting
each of them to know my favorite color and my middle name.
stupid right.?
i wake up everyday thinking...
each of them to know my favorite color and my middle name.
stupid right.?
i wake up everyday thinking...
a or b day.?
weekend or weekday.?
and every morning.
without fail.
i forget to take my retainer out.
so i walk into school with a lisp.
perfect way to start out the day.
and every morning.
without fail.
i forget to take my retainer out.
so i walk into school with a lisp.
perfect way to start out the day.
to top it off i cant make decisions.
sleep more or go to school.?
sleep more or go to school.?
tear my hair out or do my hair.?
im forgetful.
so what?
i forget things.
thats normal right...?
i cant make decisions.
not a big deal.
i trust my friends judgment.
i guess i just have to take things step by step.
.DAY BY DAY.
im forgetful.
so what?
i forget things.
thats normal right...?
i cant make decisions.
not a big deal.
i trust my friends judgment.
i guess i just have to take things step by step.
.DAY BY DAY.
NEW YEARS RESOLUTION.
its a new year.
and hopefully a new me will come with this new year.
i have been thinking a lot over this past month.
what to do with myself this new and somewhat improved year?.
i have successfully come up with a list of ten things i WILL have happen this year.
here goes..
1: graduate highschool.
2:go to college.
3:fix a wrong doing i did to anyone last year.
4:get my patriarchal blessing.
5:finish the piano instrumental i stopped writing.
6:learn something new every week about my dad.
7:be more active.
8:make at least four new friends.
9:buy a car.
10:and be a better person when no one is watching.
some of these things seem really easy.
and some of them seem really hard.
but when you break it all down to a day by day basis,
each of these things require work and thought and time.
SO...
my pledge for this year starting now.
i am going to blog my progress on each of these things every day.
HOPEFULLY each of these things will make my life better.
so starting today at day 00 i am going to keep this promise.
WISH ME LUCK.
and hopefully a new me will come with this new year.
i have been thinking a lot over this past month.
what to do with myself this new and somewhat improved year?.
i have successfully come up with a list of ten things i WILL have happen this year.
here goes..
1: graduate highschool.
2:go to college.
3:fix a wrong doing i did to anyone last year.
4:get my patriarchal blessing.
5:finish the piano instrumental i stopped writing.
6:learn something new every week about my dad.
7:be more active.
8:make at least four new friends.
9:buy a car.
10:and be a better person when no one is watching.
some of these things seem really easy.
and some of them seem really hard.
but when you break it all down to a day by day basis,
each of these things require work and thought and time.
SO...
my pledge for this year starting now.
i am going to blog my progress on each of these things every day.
HOPEFULLY each of these things will make my life better.
so starting today at day 00 i am going to keep this promise.
WISH ME LUCK.
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