I swear I am not girly.

I'm scaring myself. I have never liked pink. now I am pretty sure I love it. I like wearing bows in my hair. and I craft. something is terribly wrong {yet so right} with me. I have always been proud to not be girly. and now thats just what I am. girly. the word practically shatters my entire universe. its like waking up and finding out who you thought you were these past nineteen years was all a lie. but its okay. I am just going to keep carrying on wearing my bright lipstick,  bows and painting my nails with glitter.

here's to being girly. I think I kinda like it.

if you like to shop {and buy cute things}

Here is the scoop. because of this girl. MEG. {we love her}. I found out about this lovely night. and you can count me in. this is what you do. you post this picture on your blog {to spread the word} and put a link to either BRITT. or CLAIRE. or both if you'd like. whatever makes you happy. then head on over to their blog(s) and leave a comment on their post so that they can see you've posted. after you've done this you are now eligible for 15% off at their pop-up shop Friday December 14th. make sure you go and stock up on as many cute bows and cards as you can. they are one of a kind. I know I'll be there.

lets make some china.

I have a new hobby, as you may know. its crafting. i cant get enough. i finish one and need to do another. its crack. you can bet i will do a new craft every saturday. but thats okay. because i craft on a budget. this craft all together cost me ten dollars. and believe me. it is very worth it. what is it you ask? let me tell you.

personalized dishes. 

here is what you are going to need. 

the dishes. 

I liked the square plates. but you may select whatever rustles your feathers. 

I wanted a cup to go with my plate. so i got one. 

 sharpie pens. in any color you fancy. i went with the simple black and silver.

before you start the craft hold your horses and preheat the oven to 350 degrees. now you can draw {or stencil} your heart out. do what ever you please. be you. and be creative. or dont. just do what you want with it. because this is the good thing. if your hand slips and you are afraid you cant fix it. yes, yes you can. take dish soap hot water and a scrubber and scrub away. it scrubs right off and you can start anew. when you have finished your masterpiece and are joyed with your creation. pop it into the oven for 30 minutes. tap your fingers on the table and stare at the clock until its time take them out { with a hot pad } and admire. you have just created your favorite dishes. { and will most likely make many more }

the end result.

these are my lovely things. 

you can bet i will use them on a daily basis.

happy crafting to all.

you're a mean one mr. grinch.

snow brings good things. like hot cocoa,  snow angels,  baked goods, boots...everyday, oversized sweaters., never shaving my legs, snowball fights, fireplaces, flannel, layers, beanies, cuddling, christmas music and i could go on and on. but i will stop there.

i am one of those people that wait till 12:01am on november 1st to listen to christmas music. then i play it and play it and play it. this years favorites? let me tell you. 

first: the grinch. the whole soundtrack and the movie. i could listen to it all day. 

second: baby, its cold outside by haley reinhart and casey abrams.

third: conventry carol by sonos.

so far these are my favorites. i am always looking for more. please tell me your favorites for this year so i can add them to my wonderful playlist.

today was a good day. it snowed all day and brightened my spirits. i am not fond of the traffic and the horrible sight that it brings while on the freeway. but its lovely to watch when your all cozy inside.

I am going to do a christmas giveaway.

stay tuned for lots of holiday decorations. gift cards. festive nail polish. holiday music. and {cough}boots. if you have any fun suggestions to add to the giveaway let me know.i'll post it this week. keep your eyes open and let everyone know.

heres to mistletoe and snowmen.

the walking dead.

let me just say. what just happened? WALKING DEAD SPOILER ALERT. this episode was horribly good. it was amazingly horrible. i would rather have a zombie baby then have a dead lori. "goodnight love" that last line from her made my heart ache. literally. it is definitely not healthy for me to invest so much emotion into a tv show. and tdawg. i love tdawg. and i am sad to see him go. but he did die a martyr so he went in the best way. at least the walkers ate him enough that he isnt gonna turn. can i just say go hershel. you have one leg and crutches and you still kill walkers.and you have an awesome ponytail. carl is a mother-killer and rick is not in his right mind.  let the next episode begin. 

and where did carol go?

the six month remodel.

we have six months to go. and i am already crazy. to tell you the truth. i was already crazy six months before we even got engaged. if i pintrest i have to stay away from the wedding category. i told tyson the other day (in a really excited voice) we only have six more months! and this was his response: we still have half a year to go. its dragging. really dragging. we have two months down. and i thought those were hard. i have decided in the next six months im not allowed to have down time. because the more down time i have the more i think about how long six months is and the crazier i get. my room got the six month remodel. and for each month i will do a project to keep me busy while i am not at work. but here is my new room. give me your opinions. and some crafts that will be fun to do in the next six months. i could use some help.

 {the birthday vanity. i love it with all my heart}

 {my new enjoy pillow. a great hobby lobby find}

 {the first project. the canvas.  and a sharpie. from the new age bible. if you are confused. but i liked it}

 {my second project. twine bottles. three rootbeer bottles hot glue twine and whala. you have these beauties. they took longer to make then expected}

 {the third project. framed roses. a hobby lobby ten dollar frame. three dried roses. twine. and hot glue. fun fact. one rose is from mine and Tyson's year anniversary. one from the engagement. and one that my papa left on my door. a meaningful craft. im quite proud of myself}

{my new closet door handle. such a great steal}

im quite pleased with how my room turned out. i think i will leave it like this for awhile. but we will see i am always changing things up. but again. dont be shy. tell me what you think. please give me crafts. crafts that will come in useful when i am a wifey. 

happy six months.

military girlfriend.

this is adam. he is in the USMC. he is also my sisters boyfriend. i give them props for being able to do what they do and stay so strong being apart so much. she is happy. and that makes me happy. she deserves it.

this is the best kodak moment i have ever seen.

its perfect. and shows how much they love.

being an USMC girlfriend is hard to watch. 

so i am guessing even harder to do.

props to her. 

follow their story here.

www.racheltharmon.blogspot.com

flower child.

be a flower. be a child. dress like a woman. be a girl. be feminine. be crazy. be healthy. be smart. be bold. be honest. be opinionated. be beautiful. be peace.

but im sorry y'all. i honestly dont remember the prices on these beauties. please forgive and forget.

style tip number four:
less can be more. never be afraid to just be simple.

just because.

there is nothing better than coming home from a long day. getting in your underwear. popping some popcorn. and sitting down to your favorite movie.

i cant wait for autumn. my fall clothes are much more fun. you can never have enough over sized sweaters.

my birthday is in sixty two days. im already making a birthday list because on short notice all i can ever think to ask for are clothes and money.

im puppy hungry. 

i actually get excited to go to work on monday. thats what having an awesome job feels like. but i cannot wait to leave at the end of the day.

i bite my nails too much and get embarrassed when strangers catch me in the act.

i sing out loud at work sometimes when i think no one is around. usually someone is and i get caught.

my favorite places to be kissed are my shoulder and my head.

i will never grow out of the disney princesses. 

i swear too much. and laugh too loud.

i love too fast and trust too much.

i could eat food all day and sleep in between and be complete happy with my life.

i care way too much about fashion and music. but they are probably the biggest parts of my life.

i love celebrity gossip. i cant tell you why but i do.

i can count my best and real friends on one hand.

i day dream about being an MMA fighter. i already know what my entrance song would be.

today i drank a gallon of water. i practically drowned myself doing it.

i would rather be told that im intelligent than pretty.

i have always wanted to go to medical school.

ill live in new york again.

i am young. still trying to catch up to my old heart.

im completely in love with the most amazing man in the world. sorry ladies. youll have to settle for second best this time.

kettle corn is the best popcorn.

thats enough for now i suppose. its eleven thirty. and i desperately need to lay my head down.

be bright as light.

color is in. so i'll take advantage of that while i can. i have never been matchy matchy. but i couldn't help it with this outfit. my two favorite colors. i had to throw 'em together. its bright. bright as light.


Accessories:

necklace: $8.00 {forever21}
bag: $5.00 {cotton on}

 the dressings:

chiffon shirt: $25.00 {pac sun}
yellow skinnies: $15.80 {forever21}


footwear:

brown & blue sandals: $25.00 {forever young}



style tip number three:

If your clothes are bold. keep the jewelry low key and and in the same color scheme as your clothes or bold and neutral.



love it.

lace and tribal are as true as the bible.

lace and tribal. you cant screw up, you just cant. this ensemble speaks for itself. here is to labal(lace&tribal).

Accessories:

feather earrings: $4.00 {forever21)
feather/dove necklace: $8.00 {forever 21}
belt: $free.99 {my mothers closet}
medium handbag: $5.00 {garage sale}


the clothing:

tribal cropped top: $3.00 {savers}

lace knee length skirt: $20.00 {walmart}


shoes:

nude sandal wedges: $15.00 {charolette russe}



style tip number two:

if you have an outfit that you want to stand out wear nude shoes and simple jewelry. its less distracting so eyes can focus mainly on the oufit.



dig in.

life's a beach.

 and i'll build my own castle in the sand.

lets catch up.

one: ive changed my blog. again. i am ever changing. and i will keep dragging my blog through it. right now i feel quite simple. so that explains the simple blog.

two: i quit costco. goodbye pushing and loading carts. you will be missed. kind of.

three: i have a new job. im a disbursement specialist(slash)receptionist at flagship financial. i love it. i work a nine to five with the weekends off and and great coworkers.

four: love is in the air. thats all i'll say for now.

five: the family is good. great.

six: i took a trip to california. it was utterly lovely.


oh yes. happy blogging everyone.

sunday night baking.

when we are married this is how it will be. i'll say, babe lets make cookies. he'll say okay. then he will make them. i'll do nothing but watch and give him kisses and tell him where the butter is. and give him little love taps on the bum. ill make the process take longer by insisting on taking pictures of everything. he'll sit, smile and be patient. i hate chocolate chips, he loves them. but he bakes them without just for me.

 our oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. minus the chocolate chips.

the window seat.

lace makes me feel elegant. a feeling that i don't feel much. and the brightness that this brings to my room each morning wakes me up in a beautiful mood. and not to mention it is the perfect place to lose yourself in a wonderful book while basking in the sun. my room in coming along very nicely.

home sick nights.

i was looking through my camera. and i found these gems. i am smitten for sure.

home is where the heart is.

and my heart is with him.

if anyone was wondering.

this is my costco name tag. im now an employee and a member.

booyaa.

i ran over my foot eight times today while gathering carts.

i made two new costco friends.

and saw one old friend and an uncle.








this is the lovely zeke. isnt he gorgeous?

cats are my second favorite animal.

dogs are my first.

cats are the worst mammals in heat.











this is zeke pissed off. not so lovely anymore.

this speaks for its self.















this is that one handsome man of mine.

he has been gone three days.

only 110 more to go.

cried less today.

but i missed him more.

he got his first sale on his first day.

he will do great things this summer.

{bringin in the green}

chaching.

updated.

i havent blogged in awhile. mostly because my thoughts have been scattered and my mind is in no place to be conversing with the blogging world unless i was able to censor my page. which sadly i cannot. now that no censor is needed{hopefully}i can try to put my words together in a way which most of you can understand.most of you. but i can not promise anything. let me fill you in on whats been happening in my absence.

always best to start with the bad and end with the good.

the bad news:

do you remember when i posted this. and then i posted this. well i know what you were all thinking. engagement. i know. because i had phone calls emails comments and texts. there was going to be one. the ring the whimsical night him on one knee. everything. but there wont be one anymore. if it where our choice there would be a ring on my finger and a date set on our calendars. but as most of you know. i am eighteen years old. i am young. i know. my parents dont think i am ready to  be a wife. they dont support us getting married. so all we can do is wait till they approve and give him permission to propose. this is a heart wrenching experience. and is taking all of my strength physically and mentally not to break down and cry at every moment. it hurts like hell. hell. i love him. im in love with him. and it is the hardest thing in the world knowing im so close to being with him forever. but cant. and there is nothing we can do about it unless we start a marriage with parents that dont approve. all we can do is wait. i am hanging on to my sanity by a thread.


he is leaving me this summer. he leaves tomorrow morning at seven a.m. he is moving to seattle  washington to go sell vivant security. he will do great. he is good at this kind of thing. my summer will be full of skyping late night phone calls tears and the stresses of being apart. but four months will go by fast. i think. all i can do is stay busy and pray.


the good news:

i got a job at costco. it was a blessing and quite honestly a miracle. i am in need of the money.and since he quit i took his job. it will keep me busy this summer. which i desperately need. it will be a good job for me i can already tell. i have picked up shifts and my first week i work 40hours. my first week of summer away from him and i will be working 40hours. i could not be happier with that. no time to sit around sulking. it will be good for me.


i get my car monday. that will be an awesome day. although i think i may miss riding a bike around town. i need the exercise. and its fun. so its the jackpot.




im sorry if anyone that stumbles across this post thinks its too personal. thats because it is. but im okay with it.


thats the update. i will try my hardest to come up with interesting things to share. but i cant promise anything.

though life is hard. its still wonderful.

lookie lookie.

look what i got. its backwards but its cool.

look who i found.

her name is macy. and she is the coolest new friend.

its been a good day.

long and full of folding clothes and not enough talking to him.
but still good.

he comes home tomorrow(forgot to tell you. he went to seattle for two days. you know. he is a business man.)
24hrs.

booyaaa.

it was a good day.

him and i went to the river today. it was the first day i didnt have work that was warm. so i did not let it go to waste. we played in the water and talked about our future. it was a relaxing day spent with a lovely man. i couldnt be more satisfied.

two fish and a cat.

i walk into my bathroom. and find this.

how are they still alive?.

i like movies. so what.

i have a problem. well we have a problem i could say. i watch movies. i mean. i really watch movies. sometimes even two a day. i like them. its his fault. i might add. this movie addiction of mine. i never used to watch movies. until he showed up. now its a new movie every night. yeah. we have a date night every night. 

we could probably be using our time for something wiser. like sleeping maybe? nope. who needs sleep when there is a new movie to watch. sometimes we even run to dennys to grab a late night breakfast to go. then watch our movie while eating breakfast. its splendid. i dont know what we would do without redbox. 

when bored. we watch a movie. when tired. we watch a movie. when in a bad mood. we watch a movie. if we just watched a scary movie and are still frightened. we watch a happy movie. when we have cried through a sad movie. we watch a comedy. when past 9pm. we watch a movie. when in doubt. we watch a movie. you get the point. 

my movie collection is grand. due to the 5dollar movies at walmart and blockbuster going out of business its been growing quite rapidly. and now that i know amazon is selling movies for 50cents i will be drowning in movies. my change drawer is now forever useful.

a travelers tale.

i have created yet another blog. but. dont get your panties in a bunch just yet. first let me explain what and why. before you decide to judge. those that know me closely know that traveling runs in my family. its in our blood. those who dont know me. are about to. this blog is for my travels around this beautiful world of ours. and was also inspired by my upcoming 92 day excursion to the country of india. i decided that instead of writing everyone whos anyone emails while i am there. i will use this blog as a journal. let everyone know what is going on during my stay. not only is this blog going to be about india. but also about past {present} and any future adventures in the making. hopefully you will all follow along with me on my many journeys. so if you follow me here at its a wonderful life. then follow me here at there&backagain:a travelers tale. i promise you. you will not be sorry.  i hope to see you there. and dont forget.

ITS A WONDERFUL LIFE.

2down 28more to go.

remember how i told you that i needed to lose some poundage.

well. 

that still stands.

and i am going all out. 

im doing a month of two a days.

{the gym twice in one day} 

this is my new experiment.

eating healthy. 

not dieting.

just eating healthy. 

and working this bod of mine out. 

i weighed myself two days ago.

{at the beginning} 

and will not even glance at a scale.

until my month is up.

i have been doing it for two days now. 

so 2 down and 28 more to go.

im off to the gym. wish me luck.

ITS A WONDERFUL LIFE.

foodstorage.foodstorage.foodstorage.shelfreliance.

everyone that reads my blog. LISTEN UP. i am trying something new. im selling food storage. through shelfreliance. also known as thrive. im doing it with a great friend named merrilee fairbanks. she started out as my employer who is now a very good friend. so. here is the deal. we are selling food storage. not only food storage. but shelves for that food storage. and other great items that you would need if a natural disaster ever happened. you can go to the website here if you would like to look at everything they sell. im really excited about this and hope it all goes well. you can click on this button to my left. underneath the one that says my adoption{you can read that one too if you please}. and it will also take you to the website where you can buy freeze dried food storage. {when you buy food you have the option of having it shipped right to you or going and picking it up from them yourself, which either floats your boat}. so heres how it goes. you put that button on your blog. and link it to this website www.pantry.shelfreliance.com and i give you free food. a free can{its a big can} of any food you would like. thats all. thats all you have to do for some free food storage. so guys. its as easy as 1 2 3.

{comment if you put it on your blog. and i will get your info to send you your lovely freeze dried food storage}


and dont forget. its a wonderful life.  

run forest run

guys. i need to lose some poundage. so. i ran today. two miles. in the dark. running helps you think. and i desperetly needed that time to myself to do just that. there is way too much to think about. so i will be running nonstop from now on.

an announcement.

eh ehem.

listen up my friends. 

you are indeed looking at the newest employee of forever21.

 if i may boast. 

i am quite pleased with myself. 

it may just be my dream retail job.

so its no biggie.

now. i am actually excited to go to work.

so come on in.

and visit me.

i wouldnt mind a bit.

im pumped.

oh guys.

its a wonderful life.

oh me oh my.

i got myself a winner.

seriously though.

he beats me at ping pong every time.

it kills me.

four things no girl should go without.

today. i realized there are certain items i cannot do without. things i use on the regular.{everyday that is}. and i have decided i will share them with you. since in my opinion{which i like to think is important}no girl should  go  without. 

first off:

 floral clothing. from tights to shorts to swim suits to dresses.

 any day can be a floral day.

thats my motto. 

and second: 

an item of beloved jewelry. in this case for me. 

that would be my pearl.

camera necklace. 

just something you can wear.

that will always put a smile on your face.

no matter the occasion.

thirdly{if thats a word}:

RAIN BOOTS.

why?

because no matter the weather.

they always look cute. 

with a dress. 

with shorts. 

with jeans.

or with tights. 

rain boots will do the job.

preferably in your favorite color. 

and fourth:

books. books. and more books.

books.

that make you cry.

books.

that make you sigh.

books.

that make you think.

books.

that make you laugh. 

books.

that have cool bindings. 

and just look pretty on your shelf.

books are a good way{for me at least} to relax.

and relaxing.

is just what we need.

i wrote a song.

i wrote a song today. 

you know. 

for that boy of mine. 

im quite please with its turn out.

maybe one day i'll record it. 

and put it up.

he is the greatest. 

hes my sexy beast. 

and im his tasty cupcake.

he is just delightful to be with.

im a veryveryvery blessed young lady.

guys.

its a wonderful life.

we are.

joy williams.

you have made my day wonderful.

 thank you.

the vow.

i know where i'll be february 10th.

hello.bonjour.hola.guten tag.

welcome. welcome. welcome. and thanks for coming. this good 'ol blog of mine has been re.birthed{if you please}. it has gone through a cleansing. we have trimmed the fat. and are starting anew. hope you are as excited and i am. its still the same blog. with the same girl behind it. but. with a new outlook and a touch of creativity. take a look around. and let me know your opinions. for they matter. you guys are lovely. and thank you all for the support. have a splendid day. and dont forget.

its a wonderful life.

its no longer a disaster.

its no longer a disaster. my life that is. you know? my life and other disasters. i named my blog. what? three years ago?. that name was extremely fitting when chosen. but now. not so much. since i can see now. that my life is nothing but beautiful. so. i am changing the name. its been a long decision. since i seem to be attached to this blog and the name. i know i know. its not like im getting a new blog. but when i change the name it will seem that way. because a new name. calls for new changes. so. my life and other disasters. is no more. goodbye. you will be missed in someways. and in others. not so much. it was a love hate relationship. but i am in need of no more hate in my life. thanks for the memories. but the time has come for me to move on. au revoir.{till seen again}

mrs. annie lawrence.

let me introduce annie. 

you can find her blog by clicking here.

many of you may be wondering why i am doing this. 

because of the hard feelings.

i have harbored for her.

in the past.

well those feelings are no more. 

the past is indeed the past.

i will be honest. 

i would actually love to get to know this girl.

her faith and testimony.

have kept me hopeful through many tribulations.

she is quite amazing.

and has a strength that i wish i had.

hopefully one day. 

we can be better friends. 

because she is the type of girl.

that is worth having in your life. 

because she has already changed my life.

without even being in it. 

so imagine the wonders she could do.

being apart of it.

so.

here is to you mrs. annie lawrence. 

cheers.

fathers

fathers are a blessing. 

dont take them for granted.

{sometimes they will even give you flowers}

clothes clothes clothes.

being as poor as i am. 

i will be shopping at di and savers.

and washing everything i purches.

at least twice. 

their clothes are better anyway.

the real version of what forever twenty-one is selling.

a friend once tweeted.

"i wish all the old people would die so their kids would take their clothes to di and savers so i can buy them."

as horrible as this sounds. 

it is slightly true.

but dont get me wrong. 

i do not want any of your grandparents.

or parents dying.

i just want their clothes.

an awkward. yet satisfying post.

one of the most unsexy things out there. as the {sexy} world calls them. granny panties. yet one of the most comfortable things any girl could own. im not saying my victoria secret underwear are not comfortable. because they are. but these things. its like lounge wear. slip into those and a sports bra and you and the notebook are set all day. though i would never leave my room in them {even when hidden underneath clothing} i would cuddle up in my bed in them. i might have to be rid of my ways once i have a husband. but until then. they will stay. im just being honest here. thats all. goodnight. sleep tight.

another one.

guys.

he is back.

this calls for two words.

and two words only.

{those with sensitive eyes. please skip the next line}

hell ya.

no longer do i feel alone.

and extremely uncomfortably bored.

my best friend is back.

and now. 

i can finally begin the new year.

being in love.

is the worst.

{in the best way possible}

best thing.

anyone could ever do.

i recommend 

everyone at least consider it.

once you dip your toes in.

there is absolutely.

no way you can refuse it.

completely twitterpated.

today is the day.

so after this.

there will be no more annoying.

{i need my boyfriend}

blog posts.

i can promise you that.

i think.

i am counting down.

i need to stay sane.

he doesnt get home till ten or eleven.

so i must find things to do all day. 

ill try to be productive.

but i cant promise anything.

i am just a ball of nerves.

i am completely twitterpated.

i cannot wait. 

to see that handsome face of his.

thanks mrs betty white.

"why do people say "grow some balls"? balls are week and sensitive. if you wanna be tough. grow a vagina. those things can take a pounding.

-mrs. betty white.

oh how i love her.
what is to be said about this quote?

enough said.

change

change is hard. i will not deny that. i cannot say that i hate it. but saying that i like change would be a lie. you cant avoid change. its constant. there are good changes and and bad changes and the change in between. still. change all the same. at this point and time in my life. change is my constant companion. with moving back out. being on my own. not going back to school. to finding love. at times just thinking about dealing with the change scares me to tears. but. i have so much to thank change for. because change is what brings me to my knees every night. and change is what brings me closer to my heavenly father. change not only makes you emotionally stronger and teaches you life lessons. but it makes you spiritually stronger and teaches you spiritual lessons. that is something that i am learning. because it is the new year. like everyone else. i am thinking of the change that this new year brings. and the goals i want to set. i have the chance to control a small amount of change in my life. that will bring greater changes in the end. i have to choice now to look at all the change that goes on around me as a blessing. a test of my faith my strength and my maturity. because so much has already changed in this first week of the new year. i am setting my goals now to help me cope with the change that is still to come. if you please. you can call them my new years resolutions. this year i only have three. but if i stick to these three goals every part of my life will be influenced and strengthened. and a good change will occur. here they are:

one: become closer to my family. Heavenly Father. Jesus Christ. and always have the Holy Ghost. through daily prayer and studying the book of Mormon. really studying. it with the intent of strengthening my testimony.

two: exercise often. at least three times a week. because exercise produces endorphins. and endorphins make you happy. and having a positive happy attitude changes your prospective on life. and for me. change.

and three: become the person i would want to marry. this may seem broad. but it is very thought out. whether it is being able to keep a clean home. knowing how to cook. how to communicate. be more loving. be more understanding. anything and everything. i have so much to learn. and have a lot of personal changes i need to make to become the person i would want to marry.


these things. are the foundations i want to build my life upon. because if i do. i can go through any change and over come any hardship. though change is not my favorite friend right now. it is the friend that has done the most for me.

let me complain

this trip of his might be killing me. ya. you suck florida. 

{my apologies for the harsh words.}

but honestly.

a little bit of random.

im back. after my short leave of absence. i am back. with not much news to bring. but enough that i will share. it is the new year. hopefully everyone has realized this by now. i am still choosing my new years resolutions. it is taking me quite some time. i know im behind. but these ones are important. this will be a big year for me. my new years eve was lovely. thanks for asking. it was a night full of good food and delightful people. and for that new years kiss. he gave it to me.the perfect way to step into this new. unknown. untouched year of ours. in the arms of my one and only. i will never deny that he is a blessing.

since january first i have moved out. i live in provo now. it was a scary. but rewarding change. i like it here. its cozy. my room is small. and i have to share a bathroom. but i can deal with that. its good to be on my own again. i am currently looking for a job. so if anyone knows a place. let me know.


he left me. yep. he left me. for florida. and he isnt coming back till next tuesday night. its already been three days. and i can hardly stand it. i never realized how mch time i spent with him. till he left. and i had nothing to do but sit in my room all day. miss that man like crazy. but i guess i'll learn to deal. whatever. 

and i am sick. i have this cold that might just be killing me. i sneeze and it gives me brain tumors. my throat is eating itself. and my head. pounds 318476837641873681748 times a second. but im not dead yet. i dont exactly understand how. but. i am grateful. 

i ate sushi for dinner today. it was just my cup of tea. exactly what i needed. then again. sushi is always what i need. so i dont really know what i am saying. cause honestly. every bite i ever take of sushi. my taste buds explode. i could eat it all day. its healthy for you right? cause i think i will go on a sushi diet. 

anyway. its twelvethirty. twothirty in florida if anyone is wondering. so i am off to bed. if my body will allow me to soak up some sleep. please. everyone pray i will still be living in the morning. so. goodnight. and hopefully.

its not my last.